feelin like im walking on sunshine

ups and downs suck. they reallly do. but im up now. and i feel pretty normal and good. i met someone new. and i like him. i love my friends.....thats all for now. i have to go to work but i thought i would just drop a line....

this is my favorite artist btw. i know his first name is alex. but i forget the last name. he's a genius.

hello

my meds ran out. i feel dead.
like nothing is here in my mind.
i dont care about anything right now. i just want to sleep.
help.

Crappenings

Feels like everything sucks. There are alot of things that are going on but arent going on at the same time. Graduation feels as though i can grasp it but i cant because its too far away. I keep thinking NOVA is going to be the right answer for me and that i will get out of this place but im not so sure all the time.

My mother cant handle herself. Neither can my sister. Im all alone. I have my best girl friends but they dont go to my school and its just like oh i dont see them everyday. But whatever its alright. I can deal with this.

And i also miss C. I miss him alot. He was the only guy who really treated me like i was a lady. Like i actually mattered to him. And i miss that. And the other fellow is amazing. he always texts me and wants to know about me. i just...like that. I like feeling like i matter and that someone cares about whats going on in my own mind. He is so cute.

And my michael. I love my michael. Hes so....grown up for his age. Hes amazing. But i think what happend these past few days needed to happen. Because now he will be stronger and not depend on someone else to be happy. He will get through this.

enough for now.
peace!!!

eh

i hate school

snow.

So school is cancelled until next week. Pretty bad ass if you ask me.

I asked my mother for a colour pallet today. Sounds peachy keen yea? yeahhh thats what i thought.

Hopefully she actually buys it for me. I never ask for money so it should happen. But anyways. hopefully tonight i can go out and party like a rockstar. Im pretty excited wooohoo.

Letters to Josh and my faithful readers..but mostly josh

So this is my first blog. I quite enjoy this haha. I hope people actually read this. Well i guess i will tell you about myself.

I love doing makeup. I love taking pictures. I have turned in half my portfolio to the Art Institute of Boston. I need to get out of this place. I have at least 40 more pounds to lose. And yes. I am extremely short lol.

any ideas to blog about folks?