So much has happend..

Since I wrote that last one. That one fellow I met became my boyfriend. And we fell in love. Then he broke up with me about a month ago. Ha. Alot has changed.

But lets start of new shall we? I will start of about how I go to NOVA. Northern Virginia Community College. This place is all work and no play for me. I go to school alot durning the week. And when I am not going to school or working on school things, I am working at Party City. Which is 2 nights out of the week and all day during the weekends. I work pretty hard to keep money in my bank account and my grades up in school.

But anyway enough about my amazing hard work (haha jk) I decided to take the weekend off and play. Play at Shepherd University. I planned to get fucked up. And you know what I mean about fucked up, not just a little shitty. But completely obliterated my friends. So take a seat, read this mo'fuckin blog, and have fun laughing about my shenanigans.

I arrived on Thursday late afternoon on the campus of Shepherd University, West Virginia. My first impression of this campus is that it is extremely fucking small. There is one street with all the academic buildings and the dorms are scattered around the town. It was probably the cutest place ever. Especially in the fall. All the yellow, brown, red, and green leaves were paving the sidewalks like paint dripping on a canvas. I loved it.

Anyway that night was something to remember. It was thirsty Thursday my friends. You know what that means. YEAH. YOU DO. anyway. So I get to this Tony's place that everyone in Shepherd goes to and I'm like okay not so bad. Walk down stairs....blasting music...oh and a ton of black guys. So black guys love me. Because i have a big butt. And they just didn't leave me alone thanks to BROOK. THANKS FOR THAT ONE. but anyway I had tons of fun anyway!

And the next day was a Friday. And lets just say I was not feeling too hot. So we slept in for a while and stayed lazy for the day. That night we went to Gigi's cousin's house for the second time. And...lemme just say...Chris...is just..i love him. AH. okay so anyway we went there and pregamed and just had fun with everyone. And i went to my first Fraternity party. AND LET ME JUST SAY THIS HERE. A little boy in green kissed me and i just didn't want any of that! Some Little hippie bitch RAPING ME WITH HIS LIPS. COME ON NOW FOLKS.

But the next day on Saturday, Gigi gave me an excellent tour of the town. And can i just say that i have fallen in love with this place. Its just so...comfortable. i love it! we talked to CD. who is adorable :). And just had a nice day around town. OH and did i forget to mention that Michelle got COMPLETELY WASTED before noon? yeah no problem...lol. And she also thought the building was on fire for a second. Just thought I'd put that out there. And that night we went to the football house which was also an experience. I was talking to all sorts of people. And everyone was just so friendly. i definatly enjoyed myself.

The expierience just really made me want to go to a real college. It sucks going to community college because with me, its all just buisness.

Shepherd just seems like a cozy place that I could just get used to. And i just miss all the girls already. I'm so glad that Gigi has found herself an awesome group of friends. Except Rachel. :3

Sitting next to sasquatch the cat

and thinking wow im pretty alright right now. i have my friends who love me and who would want more?

I want more. I want money. I want a good life. And i have that. We are full of wants. But thats okay. I like being human. met another new fellow. hes nice. but i keep my distance. i also saw alice in wonderland with him.

good stuff.

feelin like im walking on sunshine

ups and downs suck. they reallly do. but im up now. and i feel pretty normal and good. i met someone new. and i like him. i love my friends.....thats all for now. i have to go to work but i thought i would just drop a line....

this is my favorite artist btw. i know his first name is alex. but i forget the last name. he's a genius.

hello

my meds ran out. i feel dead.
like nothing is here in my mind.
i dont care about anything right now. i just want to sleep.
help.

Crappenings

Feels like everything sucks. There are alot of things that are going on but arent going on at the same time. Graduation feels as though i can grasp it but i cant because its too far away. I keep thinking NOVA is going to be the right answer for me and that i will get out of this place but im not so sure all the time.

My mother cant handle herself. Neither can my sister. Im all alone. I have my best girl friends but they dont go to my school and its just like oh i dont see them everyday. But whatever its alright. I can deal with this.

And i also miss C. I miss him alot. He was the only guy who really treated me like i was a lady. Like i actually mattered to him. And i miss that. And the other fellow is amazing. he always texts me and wants to know about me. i just...like that. I like feeling like i matter and that someone cares about whats going on in my own mind. He is so cute.

And my michael. I love my michael. Hes so....grown up for his age. Hes amazing. But i think what happend these past few days needed to happen. Because now he will be stronger and not depend on someone else to be happy. He will get through this.

enough for now.
peace!!!

eh

i hate school

snow.

So school is cancelled until next week. Pretty bad ass if you ask me.

I asked my mother for a colour pallet today. Sounds peachy keen yea? yeahhh thats what i thought.

Hopefully she actually buys it for me. I never ask for money so it should happen. But anyways. hopefully tonight i can go out and party like a rockstar. Im pretty excited wooohoo.

Letters to Josh and my faithful readers..but mostly josh

So this is my first blog. I quite enjoy this haha. I hope people actually read this. Well i guess i will tell you about myself.

I love doing makeup. I love taking pictures. I have turned in half my portfolio to the Art Institute of Boston. I need to get out of this place. I have at least 40 more pounds to lose. And yes. I am extremely short lol.

any ideas to blog about folks?